Today I experienced something that slapped me in the face like an arctic blast. I was at the sink washing up the breakfast dishes and I could hear the happy warbling of my youngest gaughter singing in her bedroom.

I put down what I was doing and made my way to her doorway, stopping just before I came into sight and snuck a peak around the doorframe.

There she was, playing with a Pom Pom and a Harry Potter wand that I made for her and singing away as happy as a flower in springtime.

I watched her for as long a I could before she started to turn towards me, so I quickly made my way back to the sink with a huge smile on my face. She’s such a happy little kid.

NOW - here’s the really f4cked up thing. 4 days ago I would have had my head in my mobile and I would have missed that. Shit - I probably would have seen her singing as an annoyance or interruption to me reading about the latest f4cking waste to crap on Facebook or depressing news article about ISIS beheadings.

Is it me or is that seriously f4cked up? Like throw a water fountain out the window f4cked up?

Here’s this amazing little person that I helped create, singing away for the pure joy of it. Not thinking about anyone else and in her own little world. Playing, creating, singing and experimenting with talents that came from my half of the gene pool.

She is my contribution to the world and she’s more beautiful, perfect and awe-inspiring to me than anything else on this planet (as well as her mum and her sister :-) She’s my legacy. She’s passing on my name and my genes and is the only shot I will get at an eternal life by passing down my memories, my stories, my love and my contributions to this world.

And I was missing all of this for funny cat videos and Facebook updates????

Something is seriously wrong with this picture. I’m changing the channel.