Today I’ve struggled to keep my compulsions in check.

This afternoon I found that my brain was screaming for me to check the news, or Facebook or Twitter or SOMETHING!!!!

I think the thing I was craving was something new, a new piece of info or tidbit to satiate my appetite and tide me over.

Bad habits are really hard to break. For the first couple of days you’re charged up and ready to ‘make some big changes in your life’, but then you return to your old routines and slide back into bad habits.

I was a little stressed today (family shit) so I think perhaps my brain was searching for that escape, the sweet disengagement that enables me not to think.

It’s evening as I write this and I’m exhausted and feel emotionally drained. I think the first few days (they seemed pretty easy) led me into a false sense of security.