If I were on the Quidditch pitch, I reckon I would be a seeker.

It seems in the past I’ve always been looking for things, searching for things. Things to make me happy. Things to fill my time. Things to help me succeed. Things to eat that are healthier and better for me. Things - Things - Things. Always searching, perpetually looking, but never finding.

I have the type of personality gets addicted to things easily. I find it hard to stop at one piece of chocolate, one drink or one bowl of chips. This being the case when I’ve gotten into something in the past, be it fitness, Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu, EDM, Archery, Yoga, Hiking, Running etc etc, I tend to go full steam ahead.

There’s no balance. No easing into it. Let’s crank that fucker up to 11 and let’s rock!

Here’s the thing though. I don’t think you can ever find yourself through external means, you have to look within. It’s like searching in the darkness with a flashlight but not knowing what you’re looking for. The darkness is you and the flashlight is external activities. You can't find you if you're looking out there.

I think I’ve started to realise that we are all in the dark. Every single one of us. We can choose to pick up a flashlight but it’s not until we turn off the light, stop the search and be at peace in the darkness that we can start to discover who we truly are. ed ‘social connections’ or ‘digital friendships’. No wonder I felt empty and unfulfilled all the time.